Nothing

I wanted so much from life, I remember.

Now it seems wanting so much is so close to wanting nothing..

nothing.

it must be a beautiful place, a profound state of mind, nothingness.

to not need more, to not need at all..

that lightest shade of grey before turning completely white

that illusive magical space between conscious and sleep

the highest point of sexual ecstasy

the burnt out candle

the loss of all chances

the dead end

the courage to laugh at disappointments.