30 Jul 2011

Does Death Keep Time?



What time is it where you are?
Your memory as overwhelming as a foam heavy wave
plunging against an enduring rock, blackened with grief.
Does death in its precision keep time? Or is it like an insatiable tiger;  
voracious for the kill, quenched and listless once the neck had snapped. 






Lego



With his hands pressed around her waist
he sat her on his erection
she fit him like the perfect Lego piece  
her head hung on his shoulder.

















28 Jul 2011

Found



How you wished them;
        the love you never had
                the man you never had
                      the son you never had.

You were always dropped,
and on the floor, you learned
how to hear sunlight
drink darkness
measure the sound of loneliness
dripping from night’s loosened tap
   
Under his rhythmic breath
your mother’s voice
telling you what you are

You said you’d like to be found
then wondered why she resembled you
the naked 8 year old
dragged out of her shallow grave by wild dogs
her elegant fingers gnawed
her ears lacerated
raped and stabbed
foxes nibbling on her genitals
after the dogs had feasted.

The papers declaring the search
for the missing girl finally over.


26 Jul 2011

My follow up meeting with Ian McMillan and the BBC crew



The first meeting for Verb New Voices took place in London (see post May 4th) where we agreed that our next meeting would take place in the Midlands, so today we all met at the Midland’s Art Centre (mac) in Birmingham. Ian McMillan (Presenter), Erin Riley (Producer), and Deborah Cohen (Producer) joked about how posh the coffee and tea dispensers were, noticing that they actually had the word ‘coffee’ and ‘tea’ engraved on them and playfully insinuated that they didn’t have that luxury in their London BBC headquarter (Birmingham 1, London Nil so far!) or perhaps here in the Midlands we like to know what we’re getting rather than be surprised by the outcome..
Oh Dear! Its coffee and I really wanted tea... (sulk)! How many times a day can you regret your caffeine fix?!

Today’s meeting was very interesting as all of us poets brought substantial parts of our work which we - over the past two months – developed in conjunction with our mentors, we also took turns talking about our experiences with our mentors, how they helped shift our interest, push us out of our comfort zone, spoon out inspiration, tackle sticky bits we struggled with and make all those ‘Oh so painful’ corrections to our drafts.

As poets, we’re all very different from each other and so it was refreshing to hear the different voices, the different ideas, and the different ways we chose to approach the ideas behind our poems, Michael Edwards is such a charismatic performer with an amazing ability to slip in and out of character, Degna Stone’s poems are enchanting and she has a voice that can make you melt, I’m convinced that Bohdan Piasecki has a metaphor making machine in his basement, he’s such a gifted writer and can truly capture an image, not to mention his gorgeous accent. Deborah Stevenson’s voice is as powerful as her personality, she’s like a raging ocean and is so passionate about what she writes and John Osborn is such a surprise, he has an understated wisdom and unbeatable wit which he incorporates so well in his poems.

I, on the other hand, had the word vagina in my poem and Oh, the shame! of having to say the word vagina in front of all the men! Or indeed in front of all the women! While reading my poem I could sense I was getting closer and closer to the dreaded word, my mind constantly sending my brain messages: “Are you sure you want to say vagina, do you seriously want to embarrass yourself like this? What if your nerves get the best of you and you mispronounce it?”
My brain responding: “Shut-Up! There’s no point obsessing on the darn word now! We’re almost there, what are you going to replace it with anyway?”
My mind: “What about fourty-niner, or eyeliner? Try it, maybe they won’t notice!”
I finally said it and got it over with, but the vagina horror didn’t end there, after we all read our pieces, we had to split into groups and each group had to write comments and feedback on each and every poet, guess what I got?
‘Was the word vagina really necessary?’ and from the other group ‘You could’ve done without vagina!’ [insert piano falling on cartoon character - scene - here].

All vaginas aside, the meeting was very productive and I’m looking forward to future meetings and progress with Verb New Voices and as always, I will keep you posted.

Fatima x




11 Jul 2011

Fingers





I imagine love as thick and substantial as a log
before the dampness of rain cracks its bark open
exposing its vulnerable stem to the wind

I imagine love as vast and flowing as data, before
narrowed and cramped into a rigid man-made processor

I imagine love broad, infinite
until reduced to a few immature lines I hastily write
on the back of my shopping list, leaning on grocery aisles

I imagine love as trivial as nonsense mumbled in one’s sleep
as convincing as logic to the mumbling dreamer

I imagine love as bewildering as a page in my book
to the tiny leaf hopper that had been carried to it by breeze

I imagine love as invasive, as interfering and as commanding
as when passionate fingers are separated by passionate fingers.

  

What frivolity! Love is not a sentiment worthy of respect – Sidonie Gabrielle Colette




27 Jun 2011

Blue






for S.G. 


It is almost night
the sky is your favourite shade of blue
the dim tinted blue you feed your silent white canvases,
the dumb rectangles you give lips to.
I hold your paint brushes to my heart and weep,
anything you have touched.

I’ve done all the necessary clichés;
read your old messages and kissed them
dreamt of you on long train journeys, and
in foolish childish haste mistook every man as you                                      
                                                                       every man is you
                                                                                  every man is you.   


       

24 Jun 2011

'Ayat' a Poet Jailed for Speaking Out.

                                                Ayat Al Gormezi

Ayat Al Gormezi is a Poet from Bahrain, she was arrested at her home by Bahraini police on March 30th for reciting a poem condemning the ruthless ruler of Bahrain during a pro-democracy rally in 'Manama' Bahrain's capital. I watched her perform her poem before a crowd of Bahraini protestors on youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOVANbq_q5A&feature=related 
Here's my translation of her poem.


Al Gormezi begins her poem as follows:

This is a message to he who assumes he will dance upon the pains and wrenches of the people suffering from sectarianism disorder and chaos[1]. This poem addresses the man behind the injustice and prejudice in this country, the ruler of this country himself Hamad[2].

(Protestors shouting: Down with Hamad, Down with Hamad, Down with Hamad)

The poem is a long dialogue between Hamad (the ruler) and the Devil. The Devil being the source of all evil is left speechless by the horrors which Hamad has and continues to inflict on his people, the Devil urges Hamad to have mercy on his people and stop the bloodshed, but Hamad refuses to stop the suffering and responses to the Devil as follows:

I still haven’t filled my stomach with their blood
I still haven’t exploited all the riches of this land to benefit myself and my companions
I still haven’t tortured every youngster every child every old man,
I still haven’t stepped on their heads in my jails and dungeons.
I will agonize them and open a million doors to ensure their degradation
I don’t care about the hard working men and the well educated
I will ensure they are jobless, poor, weak and dependent  
They mean nothing to me, they are worthless to me, they are worthless to me...

(Protestors shouting: Down with Hamad, Down with Hamad, Down with Hamad)

Al Gormezi ends her poem by emphasizing on the strong ties between the Sunni and Shia in Bahrain, with repetition always being a method of emphasis in Arabic poetry:

Sunni, Shia we are brothers protected by God.
Sunni, Shia we are brothers protected by God.

She finally end her poem with the very highly provocative line:

Take my advice Hamad; gather the garbage of your unsuccessful, failed regime and depart
you never lived up to our expectations or the high standards of the good heroic people of this land. 

(Protestors shout: Down with Hamad, Down with Hamad, Down with Hamad)



 


[1] Bahrain has a majority of Muslim population divided into ‘Sunni’ and ‘Shia’ Muslims, the relationship between the two sectors has always been peaceful, however, in recent years the corrupt government has provoked a sense of deep discrimination and segregation between the two Muslim divisions, causing hate crimes, discrepancy and racism.
[2] Hamad, is the name of the Bahraini King.